December 2011
I have the best friends anyone could ever ask for.
No one wants to be in love with a sad-sack, right?
Well I’m not going to be a sad-sack. I’m going to turn 2012 into MY year. My year to turn my life into something better. To feel more positive, and let it show in my face every second of every day. One way or another, whether it be what I want at the moment, or the opposite, I’m going to be happy.
Not broke, just bent.
I'd also like to point out.
Be polite, no matter where you are. I’m always a suck-up polite little boy to people that are above me, no matter how lame it makes me. That made all the nurses love me and give me privileges that I wouldn’t normally of gotten. Most of the kids in there would be quick to yell at a nurse or doctor, and they were constantly getting their date pushed back to go home. I wasn’t...
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Not really typing this for you to read it, but more to just throw it out there, because it’s on my chest.
I was just hospitalized from 7pm Tuesday-1:30pm this afternoon. As bad as it sounds, and as much as I hated it, it put so much in perspective for me. I got a lot of help from a bunch of people that really cared to make me feel better, and I was around a bunch of other kids that were...
No, sending me to the hospital is not going to help.
Anonymous asked: you need to man the fuck up no matter how fucking sad and depressed you are. you need to show this girl that you don't need her, because honestly you don't.
The more pathetic I am, the more you hate me, and the more you hate me, the more pathetic I am.
Pride is an awful thing...
And I need to get the fuck over my pride.
Anonymous asked: I know not much of people can say can make things better for you. I've been where you are. It's hard, and what people don't realize it's a process you have to go through yourself.
Anonymous asked: who are you in love with?
Anonymous asked: honestly, it's not who you want it to be. but it's someone who cares
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Anonymous asked: smile please
I don’t have to feel like this, and you don’t have to feel like that. We both know that all of this could just be fixed, and that we both could just have happy lives. I’m sorry that I feel like this, but I really can’t help it. You have to believe that I would do everything I could to feel okay, but I can’t without your help. I know it’s scary, and I’m...
Where can you buy/rent helium tanks in the...
I need to know.
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Are there any words to better express the full extent of my grief? It hits home when you’re not home. There’s no space to grow, and all this time not much to show.
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Watch the sunrise over Mt. Diablo If you even bother getting dressed today You’ll avert your eyes neglect the skies I hate it when you act that way I miss the old you the one I used to talk to The one who kept her judgements at bay
Today for Christmas
I slept all day, and ignored the fact that it was Christmas.
Anonymous asked: i'll call the cops
Anonymous asked: really?
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I really feel like I’m grow the balls to do this tomorrow. I’m not going to be bothered by trying to beat this anymore. I’m exhausted.
Laying in bed and skipping Christmas.
What’s the point of even trying to get out of bed when I feel like this.
I just want things to go back to normal. I just...
So much for that.
I'm probably just going to leave my house in the...
And not even bother with Christmas. Fuck it.
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I could really care less about Christmas.
Anonymous asked: Are you going to commit suicide?
Suicide is what happen when pain outweighs the capacity to deal with pain. For some, it’s the only way to make the pain end.
Isn’t holding someone to life when they don’t want to be alive more selfish than ending the life you don’t want to live?
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I give up on trying to be happy.
They say sadness is anger pushed in, and anger is sadness thrown out. Well I’m one sad person who’s angry at the whole god-damn world. Fuck being nice to people. I can’t ever win so what’s the point in letting everyone else win.
What’s the point in having any regard for your own life when you hate yourself this much?
What's so hard about forgetting?
Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
